So today wasn't that great of a day. I got up ate a poptart brushed my teeth and starting reading my book. its really good and im almost finished with it which makes me sad cause i have nothing else to read after that. i mean i have books in my room and stuff but they just arent the books that i want to read. they are about vampires and stuff...i mean dont get me wrong anne rice is an awesome writer but i am just not in the mood for a vampire novel. plus i kinda have to have the books cause my dad gets them for me every year and they look good on my book shelf so yea. then later today i went to eat at Olive Garden with my mom,pete, and shain...the food was good but the atmosphere was not. my mom wanted to go do something as a family and i suggested bowling or movie or whatever and then pete is just like making excuses so he didnt have to go and i flipped out on him in the car. then when we got home i started reading again and then i fell asleep and woke up around 7:30 or so.
Then read some more...that book is addicting. oh and then my mom asked if i would help her make something in the kitchen and i went in there then her and pete started fussing about the ice maker in the refridgerator and so i was just omg im going to kill myself if you dont stop this crap. cause i am soooo fucking tired of hearing them fight over the stupidest things ever! and my mom was just like we were joking around and you need to go away and then she started complaining that no one was helping her in the kitchen and my brother was like i thought brit was and she was like brit is too worried about yelling and slamming doors to help me. I was just in my room listening to them cause my walls are paper thin and they were being loud and omg i just started to cry. like i was trying to help her out and be on her side cause lately she has been getting in fights with pete and she says he is so negative all the time and that she cant take it anymore and i was just trying to make them stop fighting and she gets all pissy. she needs to get her ducks in a row and figure out what the hell she wants before i go completely insane....
like depression sucks and im tired of being depressed...i have gained weight and i dont have the motivation to loose it and im always in a bad mood and i just want to be in north carolina....to see ben and sammy. i have soo much fun with thoes cool people! they make my day every day! and my grandma told me that i need to stop wanting to go to north carolina, but i cant help it i just love the mountains...i mean they are more fun in the winter but the summer isnt too bad...i love hanging out at the pool...i mean i dont know how the other people feel about me being there all the time i just love being in the sun and haing out with my friends...i know i must get annoying sometimes but i cant help it....south carolina is cool dont get me wrong...like its nice being right next to the lake ...almost lol....and having a huge mall and all this stuff to go do but its just not the same when you dont have fun people to do thoes fun things with. i mean i have a blast with my friend kelly i have known her for like ever now...since like 4 or 5th grade or something like that...mabye even 3rd...i dont rememeber...but i dont know...i just miss the mountains....i just cant wait till the winter when all the snow comes!! woot snow is soooooo fun!! its just like the coolest thing ever! now that i have gotten all that out......
i am going to california on the 24th! omg i am soooooo excited because i get to see my aunt sunnie and she is just like the coolest ever because we are soooo much alike and she is just soo much fun! i get to hang out with her for like 2 1/2 weeks on the beach! that is sooo freaking cool! then i get to go to florida to visit my grandparents! i love them soooo much they are the greatest! and i dont get to see them much anymore because they moved but they live in a nice community and they seem to love it down there! so im happy for them! but it will be sooo cool to see my family in cali cause i havent seen most of them since i was like 10! holy crap thats a long time ago!! haha but it will be fun!
so i really have nothing to do right now and thats why i decided to write in this thing...not that anyone actually looks at it...i mean i havent in a while...myspace has kinda taken over...haha i need to get a life! ...wait i have one i just need to get out there and sieze the day!! woot hahaha | 
